Monthly Archives: May 2011

Was It Wrong Not To Go?

Should I feel guilty because I didn’t go?  Was it disrespectful to her?  Was it a sign that I am shallow and uncaring, that I didn’t love her as much as I claim I did?  I am not completely sure … Continue reading

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Home?

It is too soon to be sure, but being here by myself in this house is beginning to feel like being home.  This hasn’t felt like home since Mary Ann died almost a year ago now.  Even when I returned from … Continue reading

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On The Road Again

I was sitting in church when the phone vibrated.  I did not answer it then but waited until there was an appropriate time to get up and excuse myself from the Service to listen to the message.  I knew what … Continue reading

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Left Kansas Half a Person, Returned a Whole Person

No, it is not as simple as that, but as I have been looking back at the impact of two months out of the country, traveling by myself in New Zealand and Australia, it feels that way.  It has been … Continue reading

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She Would Have Been 70 Today

Mary Ann was born on May 15, 1941.  She didn’t quite make the three score and ten of Biblical mortality metrics.  We had a family celebration of the anniversary of her birth that spanned about 625 miles.  The ubiquity of … Continue reading

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It Was Like Being There Again

There are 2323 of them – pictures.  Son Micah said, “Take lots of pictures, Dad.”  I did.  I now have four folders (on the computer): New Zealand – North Island; New Zealand – South Island; Australia – Snowy Mountain Ride; … Continue reading

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Witnessed Public Intimacy

It was beautiful and rated G.  This evening turned out to be about Mary Ann and my relationship – at least in my thoughts and feelings.  The pathway that led me to that experience was a bit circuitous.  I went … Continue reading

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